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alighterme:

when I’m skinny, I’m totally dressing all cute like this. With confidence!:D

alighterme:

when I’m skinny, I’m totally dressing all cute like this. With confidence!:D

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I binged several times in last two weeks… and it made me feel so ashamed by myself…

But on Friday I went to my doctor (I was ill) and she told me that I have 46 Kg and I am thin too much! <3
And it gave me new energy. I really want reach my goal…

So from today my regimen looks like this:

Breakfast: vitamin-pill + cofee
Snack: chewing gum
Lunch: vitamin-pill + cofee
Snack: diet coke
Dinner: vitamin-pill
3 l of water + 2 l of green tea
30 minutes on exercise bike + 40 minutes of working out

And I am going to keep it at least two more days.

Of course I regret that I binged but it also helped me realize something:

Everytime I binge it makes me almost cry when I lie in my bad at night… 
When I feel hungry and binge I feel good for moment - but I feel terrible at the evening.
When I feel hungry during day it is hard - but I feel wonderful and proud at the evening.

It worth it.